I rushed today, and don't feel much better. I've seen it in others, and don't like it. I remember a friend having a meltdown when I visited her, since she was so obsessed with her schedule, and I'd upset it.
As for me, I'm not sure why I'm in such a hurry? I'm my own worst enemy, I've been told.
Today mom had a doc appointment, which typically lasts 3 hours, so I planned some activities. I went shopping, but rushed that, and bought something too expensive, and forgot something. At home, I cooked an omelette, but was so uneasy with leaving it outside where it was 40 degrees, that I couldn't remember if that was safe, since it was in a unheated addition to the house. I went to get gas, but forgot something. So I rushed back home, and put it in the freezer. Then I rushed back to the doc. When I arrived, my timing was good, and the doc discussed things with us. I forgot to bring something, but I guess it wasn't a big deal. But since I was rushing, he didn't receive the data from a nurse, and I was disappointed later.
With all this running around, I can't tell if I should be so disappointed that the data didn't make it to the specialist from the nurse. It's my responsibility, or partially, to ensure what I ask gets done.
The good thing was that I fielded a call from a potential new doc for mom.
I need to slow down, since "haste makes waste, go wisely and slowly, they stumble that run fast" as the Shakespearean quote goes.
It's hard to tell what's important, and what's not, sometimes. Mom has a great nurse, I think, but apparently her tech side isn't great.
Sometimes people think I'm too demanding, but really. What's the point of doing tests, collecting data and not communicating to the decision-making docs? The labs, staff nurses, and an army of in-betweens are making a great living without the patient's health changing, except for someone's file getting thicker.
I'm going to take a walk, and a graceful one, since I'm tired of this. The funny thing is, whether I rush or not, I end up in the same place.
I forget that quality of life is more important.
