I have no idea whats going on but I've seen a lot who are having trouble holding on to their quits. I was struggling just a few weeks ago and really thought I wouldn't make it, but somehow I did. You would think after just watching my friend die from lung cancer, I would never want to smoke again!!! The truth is, smoking is an addiction and no matter how much you try to tell yourself it's insane to light up, sometimes the addiction tries to overpower the mind.
Here is what I do know as I approach my 6 month quit. I will always have to fight the urge to smoke; somedays will be easy and some won't, but it doesn't matter because on the hard days I'll be a sponge and soak up all the widsom I can from those who have gone before me and on the good days I'll be supportive of those who are struggling. At the end of the day, I just hope to be smoke free and with all of the support I can get, I know this is doable. I will never take my quit for granted. I know it's very easy to get back into a smoking lifestyle. I am not immune nor is anyone else.
I love being smoke free now and am so grateful for all of you here who have helped me get this far. I am so awed by the wonderful compassion, wisdom and yes sometimes hard lines I have gotten from everyone. I take what I need on any given day to get me through. It's worked for me and it will work for you. Don't give up on yourself. You're worth it. Stay safe and smoke free.
vicki
just 1 puff away from 2 packs a day ;)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/17/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 173
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,935
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1211
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 23 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 11
